Tuesday, May 12, 2009

farrah...quit being so hard on yourself!




I think I need to say this to myself 10 times a day! I struggle with guilt where no guilt is necessary. A few blogs ago I expressed my stupidity and guilt in celebrating Rae's birthday a few days later than it really was...to save some confusion, time, and mostly...ENERGY! Well, I can honestly say now, it was one of those times I should have said...'farrah...quit being so hard on yourself...you decided to do it this way to save some energy...and now you are wasting all that energy on all this guilt and worry'. I now agree with the plans I originally made and do not feel AT ALL bad about what I did...because it turned out to be a very very special day...all day...for the only one that matters....RAEGAN! I guess the only difficult part of my 'plan' was not being able to express to Raegan all my excitement on her special day...but I reserved it all and dumped it on her when her birthday (according to her) finally came...it was worth it:) Any how, a little shout out to all those who came to give Raegan all your love and support. It was so good to have all the special people in our lives and now hers come together for such a special celebration.







We love our little Raegan, and all that comes with her. She is all her own special person. We love the way she plays with her little brother and takes such good care of all her little babies. Daddy loves the way his little girl rubs his face in the middle of the night until he wakes up, picks her up, and holds her in his arms till morning. We love the switch she has...nice Rae...sassy Rae...within a matter of seconds. We love to see her excitement with even the simplest new tricks she figures out all on her own...snapping, cart wheels, and spelling her name. We love the heart to heart conversations and seeing all that goes on in that funny little brain of hers, like giving away her little brother just like that. But mostly, I love the way she loves me. No matter what. She loves me and wants me around and wants to sit on my lap and read books, and wants me to lay down with her, and wants me ride bikes with her, and push her on the swing. She wants to still give me kisses and hugs and wants to tell me...'I love you mommy, your my best friend forever.' There is nothing more I love than her love...and I hope it last forever!

4 comments:

Becca said...

well you've done it again, made me cry. she is the sweetest thing. I love that girl. that was a special day, she is awesome, and so are you. Such a great mom farr.

Arden said...

So Farrah, You are too hard on yourself. I will tell you as your mother that almost always you make the right decisions. That is alot more than I do. You think things through so much before that it makes me tired. It was a wonderful celebration of her life and I am so glad I am close enough to watch it. But could you please pick a better picture of me next time? I love you, mom

Crazy Lifferths said...

I love that little girl to pieces and we miss her so much! However, I am pretty sure Ev had a birthday last week! Can we get on that?!

Melissa said...

Farrah, I found your blog through Erin's. It was so fun to see you and Shawn in Lake Powell. I hope you guys got the invitation. I am also so happy to hear that you are prego again! YAY! I remember just loving your little ones when I stayed with you guys all the time that summer so long ago. I've missed you guys. It is amazing how much little Rae has grown up. She is so beautiful! And Evan, he isn't quite the newborn I remember him to be :) Love your blog! And, Happy Birthday to Raegan, much belated. Love you guys!