Tuesday, May 05, 2009

OK...I BLEW IT!

Raegan's first day of life



Raegan's first birthday



Raegan 2 years old


Raegan 3 years old

(and more to be posted after the celebration of her 4th birthday)


So, I get to watch my sisters baby this week while they are in Hawaii, and can I say...he is such an angel. So, before I picked him up at my mom's I went birthday shopping for Rae. I dropped off all her gifts at my mom's while I picked Lennon up and now I'm regretting it. I knew I should have left one gift with me to give Rae today and make this day a special day for her cause...ya know...it is her birthday. Well, my train of thought was, why confuse her. Ill just brainwash her into thinking Friday is May 5...her birthday...and do nothing on her actual birthday...today. I was obviously not creative enough to think up an alternative solution...ya know...like a special breakfast and one present on her birthday and a big celebration in a few days (thanks carlina). So, now I'M dying. She doesn't get it at all, but I'M dying. It's too late now because the day is half over and I have no presents with me...AND I have told all our loved ones to wait till Friday to call and send birthday messages (which is totally retarded and unheard of), but I really am dying having to hold in all the emotions I really do feel in my heart. No matter what day we celebrate her birthday, I am thinking of 4 years ago today and the flood of emotions that is completely unexplainable. The love that I had instantly...a love I have never experienced...and a love that has only grown since that day. She is a beautiful girl inside and out. She is my first miracle. I love her so much. My heart truly swells when I think back to that special day...when God handed me the most precious gift this world has to offer...my little baby girl. Because I have to wait till Friday to spoil her rotten, I thought that I could relieve some emotion here. Raegan, I love you more than words can describe, and I learned a big lesson...never attempt this kind of trickery again...it's not very fun! I guess thats what life is about...we live...we learn:) Please, all those who read this, learn from my mistakes!

9 comments:

Arden said...

Farrah, you're crazy but right. I remember the day she was born too and how amazing her birth was to me. my first exp. to see and not be tied up. What a miracle it is, i wish i could call her and tell her but this too shall pass. i love you guys. mom

Crazy Lifferths said...

Haha! It isn't that funny, but for some reason I am finding amusement in it. Maybe because when I got the text telling me not to call until Friday, I thought, why didn't they just decorate cupcakes or something for her tonight at home with just the fam?! But, I see what you were attempting here, and she WILL NEVER KNOW otherwise, so Friday will come and go and it will be fun, and she will be HAPPY! So nice of you to watch Lennon! I bet the kids are having a blast with him!

Laci and the Girls said...

Oh Farrs you are the best! Hey, it's the thought and attempt that counts right!!? Just chalk it all up as experience which I know is easier said than done :) Good thing I didn't have Cam call first thing this morning when I wanted to because she certainly would've been WAY confused! You'll all have a blast on Fri! Love you all!

Olmsteads said...

Farrah, stop beating yourself up over something not so big. If you didn't celebrate her birthday at all that would be something to feel bad about. What a 4 year old doesn't know won't hurt her. Friday will be just fine and she will be thrilled. Besides, you have made two grandparents happy that never get to celebrate birthdays with their grandchildren because none of them live close. There is a silver lining in the cloud. See you soon. Love ya, Trudy

Becca said...

farrah, that day seriously was unforgettable. even though i didnt get to see everything like i did with rachels, i saw your beautiful baby girl. she was the most beautiful baby i have ever seen. the first time i held her i couldnt hold back the tears, her fresh new spirit straight from heaven will never be forgotten and has since then blessed my life. she is a special girl, and the fact tha she is my sisters child makes it that more meaningful to me. your awesome farr, you and i are alike in that we feel bad about the CRAZIEST things! rae wont care, like trudy says, at least your celebrating it at all. i love you farrs :)

Jamie said...

Ah, Farrs...I love you! You should have seen Rae's face when I asked her if she was excited for her birthday 'tomorrow'. It was the most confused look, and I kind of had the feeling at that moment that you were going to wait to celebrate it on Friday...We both shrugged off the awkward silence and it was nothing. I feel bad that we can't be there Friday, but give Rae a huge hug from all of us.

Brandon said...

Farri farr farrrrr... You are a doll. I am impressed. I wouldn't really feel that bad :). You are such a good mommie. I am so glad my little baby is under the best of care. When I read your post it reminds me of how amazing that really was. I have never ever seen anything so amazing. I was so grateful to be able to be in the room. It was an experience i will cherish forever. Because of that I feel like rea rea is my own. I love her with all my heart...and because of how amazing that was, i wanted you and Becs to experience that with me and my baby. It was the best day of my existing life. I am glad I could share it with people I love the MOST! Love you and eat Lennon for me.

Brandon said...

that isn't brandon... I am sure you figured it out. He definitely didn't have a baby. just to lazy to sign out. :)

Crazy Lifferths said...

Farrah,
I hope that I remember that today is "Rae's birthday"! I keep reminding myself and then haven't called yet. Now Austin is down for a nap, so I will try my hardest to remember to have us call later. I want him to be able to talk to him, is why I am blogging and not calling! I am sad we are going to miss the party. I would love to jump in that pool even if no one else is because it is 102 here today!!! Love ya!