So, I get to watch my sisters baby this week while they are in Hawaii, and can I say...he is such an angel. So, before I picked him up at my mom's I went birthday shopping for Rae. I dropped off all her gifts at my mom's while I picked Lennon up and now I'm regretting it. I knew I should have left one gift with me to give Rae today and make this day a special day for her cause...ya know...it is her birthday. Well, my train of thought was, why confuse her. Ill just brainwash her into thinking Friday is May 5...her birthday...and do nothing on her actual birthday...today. I was obviously not creative enough to think up an alternative solution...ya know...like a special breakfast and one present on her birthday and a big celebration in a few days (thanks carlina). So, now I'M dying. She doesn't get it at all, but I'M dying. It's too late now because the day is half over and I have no presents with me...AND I have told all our loved ones to wait till Friday to call and send birthday messages (which is totally retarded and unheard of), but I really am dying having to hold in all the emotions I really do feel in my heart. No matter what day we celebrate her birthday, I am thinking of 4 years ago today and the flood of emotions that is completely unexplainable. The love that I had instantly...a love I have never experienced...and a love that has only grown since that day. She is a beautiful girl inside and out. She is my first miracle. I love her so much. My heart truly swells when I think back to that special day...when God handed me the most precious gift this world has to offer...my little baby girl. Because I have to wait till Friday to spoil her rotten, I thought that I could relieve some emotion here. Raegan, I love you more than words can describe, and I learned a big lesson...never attempt this kind of trickery again...it's not very fun! I guess thats what life is about...we live...we learn:) Please, all those who read this, learn from my mistakes!